The Hardest Part is Letting Go

On March 1st, 2025, I shut down my physical witchy shop. Here are some reflections and lessons I gathered during and after the closure, which might be beneficial to you as well.

I thought that closing the store would be the equivalent of swiping a magic wand to erase my stress.

Well, I was wrong.

The interesting thing about it is: when you spend 3 years aching and toiling away at something, giving every part of your being to its birthing and subsequent rearing, it's not so easy to flip the switch.

When I first took on the storefront, I'd honestly gotten to a place of real peace. I had a thriving client base for my psychic readings and Reiki. I had an adorable bedroom committed to that with all the aesthetic that brought me and my clients joy.I felt like moving it all to a brick and mortar was my dream come true, and at first, it was!

But here's the thing about dreams .... they change. They evolve. They grow and outgrow their environments. If we're not prepared for that fact, if we're not prepared for the growing pains of our own dreams, they will ultimately devour us.

My dreams, or what I thought were my dreams, devoured me whole. Then spat me out onto the concrete, wet and sore and beaten up.

Now that I've had a few months to really chew on what happened, I have some revelations to share, if you'd like to know. Maybe they can help you too.

1. If you follow your dreams, you must be prepared and ready to change them in a moments notice. You must be pliable, resilient and ready to move.

2. Dreams are what you decide they are. If you have a dream, it is a dream for this moment. It is not something that the You in one, three or five years will align with. Make your dreams align with who you are in every moment of every day.

3. When, not if, your dreams change, be gentle with yourself and get curious and excited about where they may lead you! Don't try to keep it locked down in the same old tired cycle you began in. This will lead to frustration, burn out and self-loathing, ending in shame.

4. Stay excited! If there's something about what you're currently doing that no longer gets you up and running in the morning, change it. Again, get curious! Ask yourself why!

5. Stop. Stop often. Don't "power through". Don't "git-er-dun". Don't "stay the status quo". All of these things are conditioned into us by toxic capitalism to "produce". If you're a spiritual entrepreneur, these attitudes go against the very fabric of what we do and what we aspire to be!

Another aspect that consistently and unexpectedly surprises me is that I had put a lot of effort into reprogramming my nervous system for joy, peace, and happiness before the store, only to reprogram it again to constant stress and nervous system deregulation.

So, now I find myself having to do all that work again, but this time it seems so much harder! I conditioned myself to be so busy with tasks, classes, events, projects and the like. Now I'm at home and I feel self-induced stress for being still.

Sigh.

Currently, my "job," for want of a better term, is to heal. Heal and rest. Each morning, I wake up with my mind eager to plan the day, filling it with tasks and responsibilities to satisfy my desire to feel significant through productivity. I never imagined that my most challenging task would be instructing myself to unwind.

It is of the utmost importance to my mental and physical health that I continue to say "no". To others, and to myself.

What many people don't know is that I have several physical and mental chronic ailments. All of which were exacerbated by the immense amount of stress I was under, especially for the entirety of 2024. My health took a severe nose-dive in November of 2024, leaving me mentally and physically broken.

So, I suppose the reason for me sharing all of this with you is, don't do what I did. Learn from my stubbornness.

If you feel like you're in the space for change, no matter how drastic or scary it may seem, do what your intuition is telling you! Do it sooner than later!

Remember: No one has ever said, "Damnit! I wish I'd never listened to my intuition!"

If you have any questions or comments, don't hesitate to leave them or send me a message. I'm eager to keep this conversation going and hope to share my experiences with as many people as possible.

Tracy